First, as some know, I have struggled with depression in my own life.
One thing I remember is that feeling of always being "walled away" from real life -- which looked both bright and terrifying. I wanted to be part of it so bad; but anxiety and an inability to move 'towards the light" kept me back. Even though my world was dingy and limited, it seemed I was stuck there.
Everything was both clear and clouded at the same time -- a constant contradiction.
I can't imagine but that for many of the residents here, even if not clinically depressed, that feeling was present at times.